Is there anyone out there who could please help.
I am not asking for any handout, I would just like information leading me to a place that is willing to take a chance and give a loan to a person who has made the decision to turn their life around.
My name is Jesse and due to both bad decisions and addictions I made a mess of my life as well as my children’s. Most of my adult life I wasted what many people said was an intelligence that would allow me to do anything I wanted. I am not going to sit here and give sob stories blaming it on upbringing or others because ultimately, the blame is mine. My bad choices and mistakes have hurt me as well as those I love. In 2004 I was forced to sign custody of my two boys’, Jacob now 11, and Caleb now 9, until such a time that I have taken care of my court issues. In 2006 I was once again caught driving which resulted in me getting charged with habitual driving under suspension which is a felony. I was offered one year in prison for this charge which would have resulted in my release within 60 day’s because of the non violent nature of the offense as well as the 2 month I had already spent in county jail, however because I knew I would accomplish nothing taking the easy way I instead volunteered to enter a local, in house, faith based program which lasted one year. This program focused on addictions as well as many other issues that affect a person’s way of thinking. Throughout my year in this program, I was forced to confront many things about myself that I can honestly say I don’t like. From the beginning, I immersed myself in the program in the hopes of coming out a better person. I never once was issued a disciplinary write up and was in time placed in positions of trust and responsibility. I can honestly say that I completed this program a better person, for the first time in my life, I was focused and even had positive goals. Because I had not held a job in over a couple years, I found it near impossible to find employment. I never gave up though and have now been employed for the last six month’s. Since my first paycheck I have set out to repair the damage I had done to my finances paying most of every check to my accumulated court fees among other bills. I have now reached the point that would satisfy the courts allowing me custody of my boy’s back, however, as much as I would like to do just that, I know that I must first get my finances in order so that I can provide a more stable environment for them. My boys are my life, but I want to do it right this time so I can be a father they can be proud of. The problem I am now facing is that because I am paying so many different places, I am not making much progress. Don’t get me wrong I have still worked towards my goal and am even close to regaining my driver’s license for the first time in twenty years, having completed all requirements except for paying multiple fine’s I neglected through the years. I have realized that because of my payments being spread to so many places it will take a long time to become stable enough to be the father my children deserve. I have realized that unless I could find a way to acquire a loan and pay of everything I would be left with one payment so I scoured the internet looking for grants or loans for people in my situation and have found nothing. If anyone knows of anywhere there who knows of any place that I may accomplish this please let me know, because I am unsure of which way to go now. Through hard work and perseverance, I have pulled myself out of the pit I allowed myself to live in for most of my adult life which many people never accomplish. I have become a new man now, ‘which any who know me would testify to,” and even though it has taken a long time, I wish to finally join the world and began living the life I have worked so hard to forge. A loan of around 7,000.00 will allow me to consolidate my bills into one manageable payment giving me the stability to be the father my children deserve. I have now been clean for over four years and have acquired all the tools I need to continue staying clean. I just want to put my mistakes in the past where they belong and be the man and father I was meant to be.
